it's a new year, a new me.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
2:45 AM
2007's gone, 2008 is here. so many things have happened in the past year.good things, and bad. bad more than good, but still unforgettable.
i've learnt so much in this one year.
how people can be good, yet bad. bad, yet good.
how people you thought were your friends, could turn out not to be. people you thought were your enemies, turn out to be friends you never got to know.
at the start of 2006, i gave up on a friendship, i never should have.
weiying and sushan.
weiying's bold, brave, loyal, and she has a set of her own ideas. she knows what she's doing, and she always stays true to what she thinks is right. i remember when i had a fight with sheryl, when i felt very... disturbed. she opened some of my doors, gave me more paths to walk. she showed me that i was a much better person than i thought i was, and for that. thank you.
sushan is someone who's always there for you. no matter who you've argued with, who you're friends with, who you pretend to be, and who you really are. she's the kind that you can never hate. (although i have found her behaviours annoying before) through it all, though, she's still someone i'm glad to have as a friend. she's been there for me, since sec 1. i'll always remember that you were the first person to come and talk to me. and i'll always remember that
for clinging on to the two of you and treating you guys like a life raft and letting go once my feet touched shallow water. i'm sorry. i suddenly don't think i'm such a good person anymore. if i was, i wouldn't make such a mistake. i'm sorry, thank you.
in 2006 i let go of these two friendships, for another. in 2007, i went back to these friendships. i don't regret ever going back, i only regret letting go again. like i said, weiying helped lay out my cards, clearly so i could see everything. she opened doors. and stupidly, i closed them. when i was given a chance to make my life a little less miserable, i chose to continue on the same path.
i'm tired of coming up with excuses, words i tell myself so i'll feel better. which is why, in 2008, there'll be no more coming up with excuses for others. i know what's going on, and i'll have to keep a clear, open mind.
at the beginning of 2007, i was happy, i wanted to keep everything as it was. but it didn't stay as it was, and naturally, i wasn't happy. but to change a word and say the truth, i wasn't popular, that's what i meant. to me, i was an outcast, and i didn't like it.
but i'm not going to put that in my dictionary anymore. i have friends that people would kill to have, only cause i know how much they mean to me.
kaili
you've been so nice all this time. it's like no one can get on your nerves. and you've put up with me, that's the important part. there have been times i'm sure i've gotten on your nerves. but it's been a good 4 years. thank you.
yijing
i KNOW i get on your nerves. alot. but hey, we still manage to stay chirpy and happy. it like little blows to a friendship this strong will make no difference. you're... special. to me, at least. thank you.
yuanting
we've quarrelled before. and i'm sorry for being swayed so easilly. but i'll always remember how much we used to depend on each other in sec 2. how netball brought us together. how basketball brought us together. how i never could hate you. you're a great friend. thank you.
huixian
sitting by me in maths class, you've been tolerant to my never-stopping maths questions and we've talked a lot as well. i know later on, we weren't on the best terms, but i hope i never lose you as a friend. remember to keep in contact, let's go out some day. thank you.
huanqing
169 buddy! you opened many of my closed eyes. i now see many things differently. even though you've annoyed me before, i've probably annoyed you as well. thank you for good times and bad. i remember when it would be gan ga when you went to pick sheryl up, and then it changed to me going to pick sheryl up. but guess what, we still manage to keep in contact, good enough. thank you.
kathleen
thank you for showing me XGB. for introducing me to the veggie garden. for picking on me, 酸ing me, 破根ing, but most of all for introducing me to such nice people. thank you for planning so many things for my birthday. i'll always remember this birthday. sweet 16. thank you.
in 2007, i've realised that the people i want to fit in with, have never been there for me. and in the pursuit of these people, i've forgotten the people who have always been with me, beside me, behind me. people who actually see me for who i am, instead of who i pretend i am. kathleen, lilan, kaili, cheryl, thank you for that surprise birthday bash. i know i didn’t seem very surprised and touched, but i was, and i didn’t know what to say. just thank you.
especially kathleen, you've made this years birthday unforgettable. thank you so much. i'm glad i have you as a friend.
so many people have helped me in 2007. so many people have gone through 2007 together. 4.1, we've been through alot. and even though, now, in the end, we're still not very bonded, but we've had good times. more bad times then good, but unforgettable good times. like the bus trip back from the tampines library.
i'm just about to label every single person in our class and thank them.
rueychyi, qinying, kaili, kim, rosalind, sushan, weiying, xiangyun, xinyu, yijing, huiyi, veronica, xueyi, peiyi, wanshi, huixian, huanqing, sheryl, yuanting, cand, maurice (thank you for remembering my bday), taihuat, weilun, benjamin, james, lim,
thank you recrea netballers of AMKSS, juniors, seniors, trainees from xishan.
thank you 4/1, chinese class, english class, our class, this class.
thank you teachers, people, important people.
2007 was bad. it was good. 2008'll be better.
lastly.
sheryl
so many things have happened. you're still one of the most important friends i have. even though i've seen alot go by. whether we'll stay in contact, i'm not too sure. whether we've changed, and the friendship between us is no longer the same, i'm not sure either. but i know i'll always remember you. remember the fun we used to have, the joy we used to share. reading your old blog posts, we had fun times. i had fun, at least. thank you.
well. i've finally finished thanking everyone. there's still...
WIFEY! 老婆!
(even though she doesn't read this)
the way we met was netball. the way we stayed together was 仁甫. the way we STAY together now, is that i still love you~~ <33
oh and.. yeah, you're 禹哲cd is still with me. ><
so... HAPPY 2008 EVERYONE!! (who reads my blog that is)
K-LOVE
notsoSUNNILY and one of these days when i go berserk,
you better hope that i don't have a knife with me.